did you ever wondered why I did not reach out?
at some point i wanted to,
but i realized i had progressed a little bit since the last time we’d met,
talking to you will only erase all of that,
cause every interaction with you,
little or none, still jitters my heart to the core.

Hi guys, I somehow retrieved the queue’d md files and was now able to push them properly to this repo. As far as I can see it’s queueing properly now. There was not a lot of md files to begin with, but for the sake of transparency I removed 3 md files from the queue which was made by Ruko. (he was drunk.. lol)

Don’t make promises you can’t fulfill, they said. What a load of hooey. If you still believe in promises, You’re in make believe land. The world is not fair and will never be. So I did not became fair once I Found out that you were not fair. All the promises are based on the premise that we are both fair. Once the fairness goes, so are the promises. I have no regrets in breaking my promises. Because I was always fair most of the time.

You must’ve been fuming now that you did not get any response from me. It’s been a year Rina! Let’s not tangle with each other again!

I was ready to offer you the whole world, Lance. But what you only wanted was pen & paper. I was wrong.

Finally single and not ready to mingle. Really feels good to get out from a toxic relationship. For now, I think i reached my yearly quota for relationship stupidity I’ll try next year again haha!

We never unlove people; We leave a part of ourselves with them that loves them. Then, we move on, Like the earth never stays in the same coordinates within the universe. We can never go back,

Upload is fixed now (i think).. had to reconfigure some things with our server. I might have to remove that as a step in the future.. shits making things complicated. I’m not entirely sure if ya’ll commits will go through.. i don’t have a hold of your .md files.. won’t be able to reupload your shit. Anyway, I’ve enabled our internal blog and created a janky ass solution that somehow connects it to our external blog.. I don’t know if it’ll work though… if it doesn’t then just use this url whatever you want as long as we don’t get dmca. Also we’re having raid issues on our secondary linux server.. i’ve raised this concern to the service provider, so ya’ll run your computations / big data compilations on the primary for now. It’ll bog down, but atleast you can finish your projects.

Kristine is pounding us hard! Stay safe, team!

You know sometimes, people are just too young to understand. And I don’t blame ‘em. Y’all are just too young. But y’all understand why things had to happen one day. Specially goddamn ruko!

Lilac is such a beautiful color. Along with any shades of violet or purple. It’s just goddamn pleasing to see! I see why people love these.

It’s midnight. Admittedly. I’m a bit tired. Recent catastrophic events have been contributing to my restlessness. What should I do? Really felt like my energy levels went from 26 to 0. Want to play, want to finish another project.. want to automate another process. I can’t seem to even sleep properly now. Every weekday seems like a chore. Pretty much running on 3 hours of sleep. I don’t know.. is it back? I don’t know.

Programming / scripting is such an art. I hate how much I missed doing this shit, frankly I’m enjoying it much more now. While I do have a somewhat good grasp of these things, I just learn new things everyday. I doubted and pretty much killed myself for the past 3 years. Grief is such a hard thing. I forgot what I can do and my capabilities were.

Well I might have erased some our previous posts .. this’ll be a mix of personal and technical posts now. I no longer care. Post the fuck all you want…as long as we don’t get dmca

It probably is an age thing.. it’s true that you cannot force wisdom. It comes with age. Back then I was really a flip-flopping bastard. One that cannot seem to make his mind up. Always on a backpedal. Therefore I will be always glad to have met someone like you. Really transitioned me into something…. or someone. I sometimes say one thing and do the other back then, dropping words and not having the actions to back them up. But maybe it’s the reason why I met you. To finally have that action to back up something.

I whinge everytime people treat and show you that you aren’t important in their lives but their subtle actions say otherwise.

Let this be on record that I was born today, 04/02/2024 at 12:51 AM by master